Precipice

Precipice

Anxiety, burning a hole
In the core of my inner man
Deep within my gut.

Whole, at least I thought I was
And now? I still believe that
But my being, causes so much pain

In you, my sole love
The one I chose to spend
Eternity with, a hundred times over.

Am I the dreamer,
Reaping destruction on the go?
No.

There is a pressure
There is a pain or two
So much destruction
Flowing forth from you.

I know I’ve made mistakes
And some actions are not to be.
But this; not this!
This is NOT what love is to be.

Love is patient,
Love is kind.
Love is pain
Love is blind?

Half-truths dancing like demons,
Shadows cast on the walls.
As the light shines,
I see so much more that your soul;
The imprint of your darkness on the whole.

My deeds intensify your shadows,
While my love is just enough to hold on.
We are upon that precipice
A cliff above the sea
About to jump in together;

….or part

Joël Benjamin